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Miranda!! Help!

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OH GOD DON'T TELL ME YOU HAVE A GAPING WOUND IN YOUR STOMACH I'MSTRANDEDANDICAN'TGETTOANYONERIGHTNOW--

[doubleppk]

No no. Not like that.

Ah I'm just... I'm ....

FUCK!

I don't know.

I can't tell if I did something that was possibly catastrophic when we all went insane or if it's good or if it's at least um livable....

I don't do relationships really well. I mean Lupin and I are so...

And now this... Did you see Havoc's post?

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...I did. I also refrained from commenting. W-What about it?

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I...

I...

Well I mean I thought... at the time... that I was married... that I'd done it with him hundreds of times before and just went with it... I mean I don't... get drunk for this reason... amongst others.

I uh.

Miranda...

I've never done that before. Even with Lupin.

1/IDK

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3/6

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S-So you're really---?

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DONE

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R-REALLY?!

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Yeah look... I don't exactly brag about it. I kind of build my reputation on being easy. Men are so easy to take advantage of like that. But I don't really go through with it. All talk. I always steal their wallet and leave them tied up and run away. Just ask Haru!

I can tell you because I mean, first off, no one would believe you. And then secondly, I'M REALLY HAVING A PROBLEM HERE!!

[time-exorcist.livejournal.com]

Okay okay okay... so... you... regret doing... that... with Havoc, yes? So... where do I fit in?

[doubleppk]

No, I mean... I don't know.

I don't... quite regret it... I mean okay, it wasn't my fault, and it wasn't his. And I could try to track down whoever orchestrated it, but the whole vengeance thing is way too much work.

I just...

I...

Don't know where that leaves me. Us... him??? Fuck. I don't do these kinds of things well and you're in a... relatively stable relationship. I still like him. And I can't tell if that's just that island talking or if it's really me. And I don't want to be a one-night stand to anyone. But that guy is... I have no luck with men.

[time-exorcist.livejournal.com]

...well. If that's what you're thinking, what I'm thinking is... give it a try? I mean, there's no harm in trying, is there? To see if it is just the island talking or more than that.

And if he does do something to hurt you, emotionally or physically, you have a whole submarine full of people that would track him down.

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The submarine is kind of down to um. Me. And Mat. Seishirou and Fuuma are missing.

It's not the point. I... I'm... strangely not worried about getting hurt with him? That's what worries me. It has to be the island talking. Because I still feel like all of that really happened.

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And the rest of the Vongola considering we don't have a ship.

Well... it did happen. I'm a witness. Everyone lived a different life for three days. You can't deny that. So... might as well grit your teeth and bare it. And if you're feeling this way, then that's just another thing you need to confront and come to terms with.

Do you want to get to the bottom of this? Or are you content with blocking out the memory and living your life as normal?

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I'm almost a little glad. I hate when it's quiet around here. Makes it feel like a deathtrap tomb waiting to happen.

Yeah... I mean I don't feel like I'm still married or anything. I just feel like... I was. And it was kind of... nice... and he's... I don't know... fun.

No. I don't like lying to myself.

[time-exorcist.livejournal.com]

There are enuogh rooms for everyone, I hope? Non-booby trapped rooms, I mean.

Then I think you need to give it a try. To both not lie to yourself and to satisfy your curiosity.

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Yeah, I can always remove the traps once you tell me which ones you guys want.

Then... I will.

Thanks Miranda. This... helps. More than you can ever know.

I never really had someone to talk to about this kind of thing. You know?

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I suppose that'll be decided on a later date.

I'm glad I could be useful to you, Fujiko. And I'm very happy you trust me enough to approach me with such a thing.

Just one question, though?

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Now just to get you off the island.

Yes?

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Without the submarine shrinking.

If you're a... W-Why are you so set on Gokudera and I...?

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I can't even send something to fly you over because I sent seagulls with jackets and the jackets shrank. But Reborn has a plan.

Mm.
Testing you.
Sorry.
You deserve some sort of happiness. And with me... I just NEVER had a good guy. They've all been pricks. Man, people in my world... you have no idea. You've seen how Goemon and Zenigata treat me? They're the nice ones!! With you... you have a guy you really like, who's really devoted to you. Seems like a good time for it. If you wait around for fears, you'll miss out on the fun. And I know you. I know why you're not. 1800s. But this isn't even your world. There's no reputation to protect or morals to appease. And honestly? I'm half-surprised he's that patient. He's nicer than I expected

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And that plan is...?

There are my own morals to appease, and... I want to be sure I love him enough before I make that kind of commitment. And I want to be sure he feels the same. I don't... want to give myself completely and then have him run off.

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I have no idea. He's being secretive. And I maybe didn't exactly ask yet.

That's fine.
Yeah... same... I'm not going to tell you to trust him or anything. I just... thought you already did. Well if things get crazy, you've got the sub to come to.