Calgara. And it's not crappy, it's kind of cool. In an 80s hair metal rock band kind of way even though he's like 400 years old.
Tch. Like I care. Do I strike you as a secure person? People who even own up to their own paranoia are NOT feeling particularly secure in life. I don't think it's even POSSIBLE for me to be this luck to have him. And to keep him. A lot of times I think Fate or the universe or life or whatever is just teasing me. They're saying "Look at how awesome life could be." And then they'll yank it away and say "But not for you. Never ever for you." That's always what happens. My only chance is that... maybe this world is different in that regard. And hoping that? REALLY wanting it enough to maybe think it's possible? Well that just makes it more likely that I'll lose it all in the end.
And Mello? It's to the point where... that wouldn't make me sad for me... I'd miss him but... I don't want him to be alone either.
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In an 80s hair metal rock band kind of way even though he's like 400 years old.Tch. Like I care. Do I strike you as a secure person? People who even own up to their own paranoia are NOT feeling particularly secure in life. I don't think it's even POSSIBLE for me to be this luck to have him. And to keep him. A lot of times I think Fate or the universe or life or whatever is just teasing me. They're saying "Look at how awesome life could be." And then they'll yank it away and say "But not for you. Never ever for you." That's always what happens. My only chance is that... maybe this world is different in that regard. And hoping that? REALLY wanting it enough to maybe think it's possible? Well that just makes it more likely that I'll lose it all in the end.
And Mello? It's to the point where... that wouldn't make me sad for me... I'd miss him but... I don't want him to be alone either.