You know I would have... jumped at the chance. I almost dropped everything here and ran. Again... But I've done that all my life. Even if it was running to something and not away, the end is the same. I... have to see this through. Maybe things here will be the same as every other time in my life. Or maybe they won't. Maybe I'll get lucky but I doubt it. But I have to know. If I left without seeing it through, I'd hate myself for not having the guts to try.
Just...
If things here turn out like I expect... please... hold that spot for me. Here or with you, I won't let you down again. And I'm staying under the radar.
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I'm sorry.
If... if things...
You know I would have... jumped at the chance. I almost dropped everything here and ran. Again... But I've done that all my life. Even if it was running to something and not away, the end is the same. I... have to see this through. Maybe things here will be the same as every other time in my life. Or maybe they won't. Maybe I'll get lucky but I doubt it. But I have to know. If I left without seeing it through, I'd hate myself for not having the guts to try.
Just...
If things here turn out like I expect... please... hold that spot for me. Here or with you, I won't let you down again. And I'm staying under the radar.