If you really love Usopp that much I hate to say it but I don't think you can stay with him. What you're looking for with him is an illusion that you're normal. That he's normal. That "this" is how it's all supposed to be. But it will always be an illusion if you leave it like that. If you have to protect him from the real you then he can't handle all that IS you. He IS a great guy, I'm not going to lie. And I think with all his "nakama" he can land on his feet over this. But you can't stay with him living an illusion if you love him because it will hurt you both in the end. You might not resent it yet but someone who would rather have the masks than the real you? That's not someone you can stay with without hurting them. A LOT more deeply than you already are. Because the more you love someone the more accidental trust happens. And eventually you'll forget to have the perfect mask up at the right time and he'll start to see things and feel betrayed that you wouldn't show it to him earlier. Ever hear Billy Joel's song "The Stranger?"
Maybe Usopp is better equipped to handle those things than he um... first seems. or even after months seems. You'd know better than me. But if you've been dating all these months and still don't think so, then you really... just CANNOT stay with him. You'll pretty much break him worse than leaving. And I've broken men before. It's not a pretty sight.
Lucci is... strong. And grounded. And... I don't want to take "sides" because Usopp is a great guy and all the rest but I do... pretty much have to admit that Lucci is... more likely to appreciate you fully. Especially since like you said, you feel like you have to protect Usopp from part of who you are. And you can't do that with someone you love. The more they love you the more they'll want of you. And you're the kind of girl people like for being so real. Authentic. Saying what's on your mind, upfront and out in the open, no fear of reprecussions. So to hide such a huge part of yourself from Usopp... I think he'd be happier in the long run if you let him go. And I've seen the difference in the effect you've had on Lucci. He's a lot more drastically happy or depressed from you than Usopp. Not because Usopp cares less, just... I don't think he needs you as much as Lucci does. I know, that's bad to say too but it's true.
Hey George if I told you I had a crush on both of them too myself. And that I was going to steal whichever of them you don't take, who do you feel most jealous over first? Whose was the first face that flickered to mind as being more painful to watch that happen?
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Maybe Usopp is better equipped to handle those things than he um... first seems.
or even after months seems.You'd know better than me. But if you've been dating all these months and still don't think so, then you really... just CANNOT stay with him. You'll pretty much break him worse than leaving. And I've broken men before. It's not a pretty sight.Lucci is... strong. And grounded. And... I don't want to take "sides" because Usopp is a great guy and all the rest but I do... pretty much have to admit that Lucci is... more likely to appreciate you fully. Especially since like you said, you feel like you have to protect Usopp from part of who you are. And you can't do that with someone you love. The more they love you the more they'll want of you. And you're the kind of girl people like for being so real. Authentic. Saying what's on your mind, upfront and out in the open, no fear of reprecussions. So to hide such a huge part of yourself from Usopp... I think he'd be happier in the long run if you let him go. And I've seen the difference in the effect you've had on Lucci. He's a lot more drastically happy or depressed from you than Usopp. Not because Usopp cares less, just... I don't think he needs you as much as Lucci does. I know, that's bad to say too but it's true.
Hey George if I told you I had a crush on both of them too myself. And that I was going to steal whichever of them you don't take, who do you feel most jealous over first? Whose was the first face that flickered to mind as being more painful to watch that happen?